Jumaat, Ogos 23, 2013

found this faith on my own

"my friend have been revert to Islam, and I read her status in Facebook. I thought it was good to share it here for our reminder."

Shobita Silvadas July 8
Dear Christian Brother/sister: My current faith and what I do is not of your business. I dunno what gotten into you, you seriously need to mind your own business. What business of your is it that you need to tell one of my family member about me and my current faith that I practice??

Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody. – 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12

A talebearer reveals secrets: but he that is of a faithful spirit conceals the matter. Proverb 11:13

Clearly, you’re not even following what you’ve been taught in the bible. Well, I am ashamed of you. Whoever you are, I hope God will have mercy on you. For whatever misery that you have caused me & my family, I shall let God Avenge in His own time. I have the choice to curse you. But why am I not doing that? That’s because it wouldn’t make me any different than you.

If you’re truly man/women of faith, you would have minded your own business. You’re so close to destroying my life, you know that? If anything happens to me or my family because of this, I will hold you accountable. You will be answerable to God on the day of judgement. Whatever I do in my life has nothing to do with you, so why bother?? What do you gain from being a talebearer?? I live my life and you live yours. Whoever you are, you have no part in my life. You don’t deserve any form of respect from me for what you have caused me.

Dear Muslim brother/sister(in general): Do you not realize how beautiful Islam is? Do you know its because of your actions, its hard for ppl to know or understand how beautiful Islam is? You take what God permits to your own selfish advantage, etc. Let’s be a much better muslim than who we are right now. Allah has Given us the Quran, the only preserved Word of God which is not distorted. Lets preserve the word of Allah in our actions. If you wanna Dakwah to others and say that, the Scriptures of the People of the book (Jews,Christian) are distorted, well; first we have to proof that our actions reflect the Quran. What is the point saying that you’re a muslim who believes Allah & His word when our actions doesn’t reflect Him & His word?? We’ll be no different than them. Think about it!!

Malaysia : Proudly using the percentage 60% of muslims in the country means nothing when the actual believing & practicing muslims are much lesser than that. Using Islam as a political advantage is not something to be proud of. Look at the leaders of the nation for example. Are they doing what is commanded by Allah? Leaders, are those in power to influence & to change. Citizens look up to them. Are the Leaders of this nation doing what they are supposed to be doing? When they don’t, people loose trust & disrespects them. Especially when they are muslims, they disrecpect the religion all together because their action does not reflect the faith tht they are holding. How are the muslims suppose to Dakwah when the leaders of the nation does things that does not reflect the faith they hold?

My current faith that I believe in is being Questioned/tested by one of my family member right now. There’s just so much of rejection. Why? Its because of everything that is going on and the bad Impression because of the action brought forward by Muslim’s themselves. I know how beautiful Islam is because of the personal encounter that I went thru. I just completed my first 5 times of prayer in the past 2 days for the very first time. I saw the beauty of Worship.

Only I know what I felt when I went thru these experiences. Islam is beautiful in its own way. Only people who goes thru that spiritual experience will be able to understand. This is something that is hard to explain to ppl who has firewall in their head.

 I pray that Allah will have Mercy on me and help me with the struggle of explaining my faith to others.
 I pray that He will make things easier for me. May I learn to strengthen my faith thru this JIHAD.

 To everyone,
 • Do not interfere in my personal faith & family matter. Just be Happy for me. That is all I am asking. I am not a Muslim Scholar to answer all your ‘’Why”” questions.
 • I found this faith on my own. My faith has nothing to do with anything or anyone.
 • No one influenced me for that matter.
 • No, I do not have a muslim Boyfriend.

Christian Brother/sister,(whoever revealed it to one of my family member about my faith), Your action caused my Facebook to be hacked by my Malaysian brother in law. They came looking for me right at my door step, on Saturday night(after 7-8months of cutting of the family relationship). Went thru almost 2hrs of emotion stirring conversation, tears, guilt tripping moments etc.
Do I need to go thru that??
No, but I thank you that I don’t really have to hide my faith so much anymore. This will only make me stronger.

If anything happens to me or my family because of this, I will hold you accountable. You will be answerable to God on the day of judgement. Remember to reflect on what I have just said from the beginning. It’s a lesson for all. What i have just said is meant to clear the air not to offend anyone in particular. Thanks for understanding.

(Lord) guide us to the straight path.

"my friend have been revert to Islam, and I read her status in Facebook. I thought it was good to share it here for our reminder."

by Shobita Silvadas
Yesterday morning, after having my pre-dawn meal, I decided to rest before I could pray Fajr prayer. While I was resting, I was listening to music. As I closed my eyes, I saw images. When I opened my eyes, the images could only make half a sense.

It only made full sense after Fajr prayer. I’ll tell you why.

The image that saw: I was at sea in a boat without a row. I was experiencing raging sea. Directionless, helpless. The waves of the sea were rocking the boat really hard. What I am to do? What does that supposed to mean? It hit me. That was me and the life that I was living. Then, I was given a pair of row. Finally I thought I was saved. I survived the raging sea with a pair of row.Then, came the rapid waters. Knowing that I have a pair of row, I somehow managed the current of the water from different directions. After the rapid waters, the stream seemed calm, maybe too calm. I rowed not knowing where it leading me to. To my surprise, I was heading for a waterfall. I saw myself rowing backwards. I opened my eyes. Then I preceded with my Fajr prayers. While I was still praying the images was still in my head. Once I was done, I sat down to make Du’a.When I sat down, Allah, was trying to remind me of Surah Al-fatiha that I just recited. Ihdina alssirata almustaqeem (Lord) guide us to the straight path. Back to the Waterfall images in my head: With or without the row I am still going down the stream not knowing what is ahead of me. Will I survive the fall?? Then, Allah reminded me that I should let go and trust Him. When I closed my eyes, I saw myself falling down the stream. The boat was gone but I survived. It was as though, the moment I decided to trust Him, He put on me an invisible lifejacket.

 When I landed at the bottom, it was a smooth sailing stream. I am reminded that, when we recite : Ihdina alssirata almustaqeem (Lord) guide us to the straight path. We have to remember to always trust God no matter what is ahead of us.

Our journey to the straight path is not going to be an easy one. There’s always gonna be something like the waterfall which would come our way. Sometimes, it can be so difficult to even place a trust knowing that the hardship or whatever ahead of us is unknown. We so much want things to happen for us.

Things that we want. Beware that, things that we may want, might be the one that is side-tracking us from the straight path. So, sometimes, God have to place things like the waterfall, so that we learn to let go and trust Him instead.
It’s amazing how Allah can teach me all these just thru that one verse in Surah Al-Fatiha. He showed me there’s so much more to Surah Al-Fatiha than what it may seem.
So far, my journey with Allah has been a blessed one. Allah, You never failed to Amaze me. I am truly blessed.


Isnin, Ogos 19, 2013

remove or block me

terus-terang, aku berstatus di Facebook bukan sebab nak menunjuk. aku pernah ada blog sejak 2005. lepas tu 2009, aku beralih ke Facebook. otak aku suka nak berkongsi, tapi aku tak pandai luahkan melalui ceramah, jadi aku menulis. tak tahu nak luah kat siapa. Yes, Allah is the best place, but we still need someone to be with us.

tegurlah saya cara baik. jika tidak mampu, sila lah remove/block saya jika anda rasa saya berlagak atau menunjuk. saya minta maaf.

bertudung dengan skirt

Alhamdulillah hari ni belajar jadi pemandu pelancong di Kuala Lumpur.
Jalan Inai - KLCC - KL Sentral - Muzium Negara - Stesen Keretapi Kuala Lumpur - Masjid Negara - Pasar Seni.
membawa 29 delegasi belia dari Filipina, Vietnam, Thailand dan Myanmar. pengalaman yang paling menarik apabila di Masjid Negara.

kami tiba dalam keadaan basah kuyup jam 4.05 petang (delegasi ni memang dah penat, tapi diorang nak jugak pergi Masjid Negara). sesampai di sana, pengawal kata masa melawat jam 5.30 petang (kena tunggu). alhamdulillah ada seorang sukarelawan Islamic Outreach ABIM, Mahmud (Palestin) pujuk pengawal untuk beri 5 minit. sangat bersungguh dan rasa sangat terharu sebab dia sangat beria-ia nak layan kami.

dengan keadaan basah kuyup tu, delegasi pakai jubah ungu dan naik ke tingkat atas. Alhamdulillah Mahmud beritahu tentang Islam dan Tuhan. dalam masa yang singkat, aku dapat lihat sesetengah delegasi rasa seperti ingin tahu. masa di Pasar Seni, aku lihat seorang daripada mereka pakai tudung. aku terkejut, sangat terkejut. dia tanya "ada macam Malaysian tak?". lidahku kelu, dalam hati aku bersyukur sangat. aku tak tanya beliau terus, sebab aku takut tersalah cakap lagi. jadi aku minta kawan perempuan aku untuk bantu beliau.

selepas solat magrib, seorang kawannya pun pakai tudung, tetapi dia pakai skirt dan lengan pendek. semua orang pandang padanya. mereka berdua pakai sehingga sampai ke UKM. sempat tanya, "how you feel?" "it's comfortable"....

# meskipun mereka hanya cuba-cuba pakai, sangat kagum dengan mereka. oh, I need to be good muslim.