Hidup ni lebih dari periksa

"terbaik status daripada Zainal Lutfi"

Best jadi cikgu tusyen:

Hanya dengan mengajar,
Baru aku makin sedar,
Punyalah dunia aku dulu tak besar,
Sekadar cita-cita A bertebar.

Hari-hari tercanguk dalam kelas,
Mengadap soalan atas kertas,
Menghafal, menghafal sampai buntut keras,
Padahal konsep ilmu pun tak jelas.

Bila mengajar, timbul kasihan,
Pada budak- budak yang terkurung dek peperiksaan,
Apa faedah menghafal jawapan?
Kalau konsep mudah pun tak boleh telan.

Sesekali rasa nak bercerita,
Hidup ni lebih dari periksa,
Dunia luar banyak jalannya,Tak semesti semua orang sama.

Cuma nasihat kecil berani ku tuju,
Dari sekarang, pilih jalan hidupmu,
Kalau nati bila dah jumpa,
 Pergilah kejar tanpa jemu.

(Nak bagi kat anak-anak tusyen yang umur dah 16-17 tahun. Umur ni patutnya dah boleh fikir dan buat macam-macam.)

Eid Adha Celebration

Today, is a Eid Adha celebration. It is a special day for me, as a Muslim, this 10 until of Dhu-al-Hijjah month (a last month in lunar calendar) is a historical period when all the Muslim need to memorize and take a lessons from scarification of Prophet Ibrahim, his wife Hajar and his son, Prophet Ismail obedience to the only God (Allah). For me, I need to obey and worship to Allah in what ever difficulties that I had in this life.

As all knew, Mecca/Makkah is a holy city for Muslim to worship Allah. All Muslim over the world faced to Mecca (we call as Qibla) during our prayer. I'm in Malaysia, so, I will facing 292.57° N (6980 km) in my daily prayer. This period of celebration, the Muslim who have their strength to go there, they will do the fifth pillars of Islam (Hajj: pilgrimage to Mecca at least once in a lifetime, if he/she is able to do.)

The Hajj is associated with the life of the Prophet Muhammad from the 7th century, but the ritual of pilgrimage to Mecca is considered by Muslims to stretch back thousands of years to the time of Prophet Ibrahim. Pilgrims perform a series of rituals:
1. Tawaf or circumambulation
2. Wuquf in Arafat (spend time praying, and thinking about the course of their lives)
3. Ramy Al-Jamarat throws stones in a ritual Stoning of the Devil (This symbolizes the trials experienced by Abraham while he was going to sacrifice his son as demanded by God).
4. Perform a Sa'i which means rapidly walking seven times back and forth between the hills of Safa and Marwah. This is a re-enactment of Hajar's frantic search for water. The baby Ismail cried and hit the ground with his foot and water miraculously sprang forth. This source of water is today called the Well of Zamzam.
5. and others...

For me, whose not have chance to go there yet, we will perform our prayer here and to sacrifice their best halal domestic animals (usually a cow, but can also be a camel, goat, sheep or ram depending on the region) as a symbol of Abraham's willingness to sacrifice his young first-born son Ismail as an act of submission to Allah's command and his son's acceptance to being sacrificed, before Allah intervened to provide Abraham with a Lamb to sacrifice instead. I'm still don't have enough money, so, I help community to slaughter a cow and do cook here, and the meat will be distribute to the poor people and community.





That's my story of this great celebration day each year in my life.
May God (Allah) bless us!

Pertemuan Fasilitator AYVP

"dalam setiap pertemuan yang menggembirakan, bersamalah menjaga batas bersuka ria"

semalam, aku bersama dengan Emir dan Syazwan ke rumah Regine untuk jamuan sebelum Eid Adha. Regine atau nama muslim adalah Maryam, seorang pekerja di UKM dan berasal dari Filipina. Beliau memeluk Islam pada September tahun lepas. Beliau mengajak kami, rakan fasilitator semasa program ASEAN Youth Volunteer Programme (AYVP) yang telah berlangsung di UKM pada Ogos sehingga September 2013 yang lalu. 

Antara yang turut hadir ialah Ticher Ina, Ain (fasilitator bagi kawasan Kuala Selangor), Atiqah (fasilitator bagi kawasan Setiu), Liyana (fasilitator bagi kawasan Mersing) dan Atiqah (fasilitator bagi kawasan Kg Dew ). Oleh kerana fasilitator lelaki yang lain sudah pulang ke kampung halaman, aku mengajak Syazwan (junior aku di UKM) dan Emir (adik muridku) untuk menemaniku.

Sesi bermula dengan masak-masak, kami yang lelaki tak tolong apa-apa. Rasa segan juga dengan mereka yang bertungkus-lumus memasak nasi ayam. Sempat berbual dengan Regine dan meminta nasihatnya tentang alam pekerjaan yang bakal ku tempuhi November ini. ternyata alam pekerjaan bukan seseronok alam belajar. Ia melibatkan komitmen dan keterikatan dengan wang. Apabila kita dibayar gaji, kita hendaklah melakukan dengan sepenuh jiwa setimpal dengan gaji yang diberikan, jika tidak kita dianggap curi tulang atau tak berkat wang gaji bulanan. 

Regine minta aku membaca surah untuk memberkati majlis. Emir seorang hafiz (hafaz quran), beliau sukarela untuk membacakan surah Yusuf. Alhamdulillah rasa sejuk hati mendengar bacaan beliau, sungguh beruntung bakal isteri beliau. Aku akan berusaha untuk menghafaz Quran seperti beliau. Niat kena betul, bukan kerana isteri tetapi kerana Allah. Lebih jelas, supaya aku dapat sentiasa memperingat diri untuk sentiasa bertaqwa kepada Allah.

Emir terpaksa pulang atas urusan lain, Kak Asmaa' datang beberapa minit selepas itu. Kak Asmaa' seorang yang kakak yang sangat baik dan banyak membantu kami fasilitator semasa program AYVP. Meskipun baru kenal dalam 2 bulan, tetapi rasa macam kami dah macam adik-beradik. Namun, beliau sudah berhenti kerja petang tadi atas urusan tertentu. Jadi di kesempatan malam ini, kami buat sedikit jamuan untuk beliau. Menu sangat banyak, ada nasi ayam (makanan melayu), roti canai, roti telur, roti sardin, roti tisu (makanan india), puding roti, makanan filipina, aiskrim, kek, buah, bebola, tomyam.

Sesi jamuan kami banyak bertanya khabar sesama kami setelah hampir sebulan tak jumpa. Alhamdulillah, berkongsi pelbagai cerita dan gelagat setiap orang pada malam itu, sedikit sebanyak menghidupkan suasana malam itu. Jamuan ini juga untuk meraikan Eid Adha bersama Regine yang akan beraya seorang diri di Malaysia pada 15 Oktober 2013. Alhamdulillah pertemuan ini sangat menggembirakan, kami tetap menjaga batas bersuka ria. Moga Allah berkati usaha semua yang hadir pada malam ini.

Terima kasih semua!

jealous

I need someone who can be with me all the time, advising me whenever I down, inspiring me with a motivational words. I felt like I can't discipline myself, I need someone.

I am jealous with others who have theirs own BFF.

putus....

perasaan ini berat hendak menyatakan.

semakin lemah dan tidak pandai membuat keputusan.

merasakan diri ini semakin tidak berkemampuan.

janganku putus harapan untuk mengejar masa hadapan.

found this faith on my own

"my friend have been revert to Islam, and I read her status in Facebook. I thought it was good to share it here for our reminder."

Shobita Silvadas July 8
Dear Christian Brother/sister: My current faith and what I do is not of your business. I dunno what gotten into you, you seriously need to mind your own business. What business of your is it that you need to tell one of my family member about me and my current faith that I practice??

Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody. – 1 Thessalonians 4:11-12

A talebearer reveals secrets: but he that is of a faithful spirit conceals the matter. Proverb 11:13

Clearly, you’re not even following what you’ve been taught in the bible. Well, I am ashamed of you. Whoever you are, I hope God will have mercy on you. For whatever misery that you have caused me & my family, I shall let God Avenge in His own time. I have the choice to curse you. But why am I not doing that? That’s because it wouldn’t make me any different than you.

If you’re truly man/women of faith, you would have minded your own business. You’re so close to destroying my life, you know that? If anything happens to me or my family because of this, I will hold you accountable. You will be answerable to God on the day of judgement. Whatever I do in my life has nothing to do with you, so why bother?? What do you gain from being a talebearer?? I live my life and you live yours. Whoever you are, you have no part in my life. You don’t deserve any form of respect from me for what you have caused me.

Next,
Dear Muslim brother/sister(in general): Do you not realize how beautiful Islam is? Do you know its because of your actions, its hard for ppl to know or understand how beautiful Islam is? You take what God permits to your own selfish advantage, etc. Let’s be a much better muslim than who we are right now. Allah has Given us the Quran, the only preserved Word of God which is not distorted. Lets preserve the word of Allah in our actions. If you wanna Dakwah to others and say that, the Scriptures of the People of the book (Jews,Christian) are distorted, well; first we have to proof that our actions reflect the Quran. What is the point saying that you’re a muslim who believes Allah & His word when our actions doesn’t reflect Him & His word?? We’ll be no different than them. Think about it!!

Next,
Malaysia : Proudly using the percentage 60% of muslims in the country means nothing when the actual believing & practicing muslims are much lesser than that. Using Islam as a political advantage is not something to be proud of. Look at the leaders of the nation for example. Are they doing what is commanded by Allah? Leaders, are those in power to influence & to change. Citizens look up to them. Are the Leaders of this nation doing what they are supposed to be doing? When they don’t, people loose trust & disrespects them. Especially when they are muslims, they disrecpect the religion all together because their action does not reflect the faith tht they are holding. How are the muslims suppose to Dakwah when the leaders of the nation does things that does not reflect the faith they hold?

My current faith that I believe in is being Questioned/tested by one of my family member right now. There’s just so much of rejection. Why? Its because of everything that is going on and the bad Impression because of the action brought forward by Muslim’s themselves. I know how beautiful Islam is because of the personal encounter that I went thru. I just completed my first 5 times of prayer in the past 2 days for the very first time. I saw the beauty of Worship.

Only I know what I felt when I went thru these experiences. Islam is beautiful in its own way. Only people who goes thru that spiritual experience will be able to understand. This is something that is hard to explain to ppl who has firewall in their head.

 I pray that Allah will have Mercy on me and help me with the struggle of explaining my faith to others.
 I pray that He will make things easier for me. May I learn to strengthen my faith thru this JIHAD.

 To everyone,
 • Do not interfere in my personal faith & family matter. Just be Happy for me. That is all I am asking. I am not a Muslim Scholar to answer all your ‘’Why”” questions.
 • I found this faith on my own. My faith has nothing to do with anything or anyone.
 • No one influenced me for that matter.
 • No, I do not have a muslim Boyfriend.

Christian Brother/sister,(whoever revealed it to one of my family member about my faith), Your action caused my Facebook to be hacked by my Malaysian brother in law. They came looking for me right at my door step, on Saturday night(after 7-8months of cutting of the family relationship). Went thru almost 2hrs of emotion stirring conversation, tears, guilt tripping moments etc.
Do I need to go thru that??
No, but I thank you that I don’t really have to hide my faith so much anymore. This will only make me stronger.

If anything happens to me or my family because of this, I will hold you accountable. You will be answerable to God on the day of judgement. Remember to reflect on what I have just said from the beginning. It’s a lesson for all. What i have just said is meant to clear the air not to offend anyone in particular. Thanks for understanding.

(Lord) guide us to the straight path.

"my friend have been revert to Islam, and I read her status in Facebook. I thought it was good to share it here for our reminder."

by Shobita Silvadas
Yesterday morning, after having my pre-dawn meal, I decided to rest before I could pray Fajr prayer. While I was resting, I was listening to music. As I closed my eyes, I saw images. When I opened my eyes, the images could only make half a sense.

It only made full sense after Fajr prayer. I’ll tell you why.

The image that saw: I was at sea in a boat without a row. I was experiencing raging sea. Directionless, helpless. The waves of the sea were rocking the boat really hard. What I am to do? What does that supposed to mean? It hit me. That was me and the life that I was living. Then, I was given a pair of row. Finally I thought I was saved. I survived the raging sea with a pair of row.Then, came the rapid waters. Knowing that I have a pair of row, I somehow managed the current of the water from different directions. After the rapid waters, the stream seemed calm, maybe too calm. I rowed not knowing where it leading me to. To my surprise, I was heading for a waterfall. I saw myself rowing backwards. I opened my eyes. Then I preceded with my Fajr prayers. While I was still praying the images was still in my head. Once I was done, I sat down to make Du’a.When I sat down, Allah, was trying to remind me of Surah Al-fatiha that I just recited. Ihdina alssirata almustaqeem (Lord) guide us to the straight path. Back to the Waterfall images in my head: With or without the row I am still going down the stream not knowing what is ahead of me. Will I survive the fall?? Then, Allah reminded me that I should let go and trust Him. When I closed my eyes, I saw myself falling down the stream. The boat was gone but I survived. It was as though, the moment I decided to trust Him, He put on me an invisible lifejacket.

 When I landed at the bottom, it was a smooth sailing stream. I am reminded that, when we recite : Ihdina alssirata almustaqeem (Lord) guide us to the straight path. We have to remember to always trust God no matter what is ahead of us.

Our journey to the straight path is not going to be an easy one. There’s always gonna be something like the waterfall which would come our way. Sometimes, it can be so difficult to even place a trust knowing that the hardship or whatever ahead of us is unknown. We so much want things to happen for us.

Things that we want. Beware that, things that we may want, might be the one that is side-tracking us from the straight path. So, sometimes, God have to place things like the waterfall, so that we learn to let go and trust Him instead.
It’s amazing how Allah can teach me all these just thru that one verse in Surah Al-Fatiha. He showed me there’s so much more to Surah Al-Fatiha than what it may seem.
So far, my journey with Allah has been a blessed one. Allah, You never failed to Amaze me. I am truly blessed.

Alhamdulillah.